Happiness Part – 3

Like all other days, today the reason for my happiness is different.

Happiness for me today is having a hair cut. Oh god, it feels so good and so light after having a hair cut. The happiness lies in eating yummy food till you can. Good food and wine go hand in hand. Happiness is having a relaxed bath in the hot tub of water between all those soapy bubbles and playing like a child in the tub.

And above all if I get to chat with My Girl, then the happiness meter is on the top of the roof ­čśÇ

All in all, it’s a day well spent!!

 

Gaurav Gupta

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Emotional Weather

My Heart is so cold.. like it’s cold outside…

Tears rolling out of my eyes.. like it’s raining outside…

Ambitions are blown away by the strong wind that is blowing outside…

But still there is some light in the corner of my room… like I have some hope in the corner of my heart…

One day, the tide will turn… fate will smile on me…

Sunshine ┬áwill be there like the smile of My girl ­čÖé

I will beat this darkness with the hope I have and I will rise and shine in the new day with My Girl…

P.S – This is my first attempt at writing any kind of poem. There is no rhyming at all. Fellow readers and bloggers, do inbox me if you like it.

 

Gaurav Gupta

Brunch

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Happiness┬áis having bread roll in brunch. Especially when you don’t have to share them with anyone else. Above all the green chutney was awesome.

I love it when I can prepare anything, anytime, anyway I want it. I am loving this freedom.

Bread rolls were simply tasty and yummy.

Happy cooking fellow bloggers and readers.

P.S – Inbox me if anyone wants the┬árecipe of the dish.

 

Gaurav Gupta

Job Interview

“Why do you want this job?”. I was day dreaming again and this question from the interviewer startled me. Back to reality.

Me : I want to be a part of the hospitality industry. I have heard a lot about this hotel and this place and I can see myself in a good position in this hotel after next 5 years.

The interviewer looked at me like he is scanning me. In my mind I thought, has he been able to guess that I have memorized that answer just for this question only.

Second Interviewer : I see that you have 3 years of work experience in IT industry, then why you want to join the hospitality industry?

I am not prepared for this question. “I want to take care of people”, I murmured.

Second Interviewer : What?

I said, “I love cooking and want to explore new things in life”. I continued in the same vein “Well, I like Dubai and as it is a new place I want to start fresh. I don’t want to continue in IT industry”. Yes, I was in Dubai giving an interview.

First Interviewer : You have been to onsite once in your short IT career. I assume you were good. Then why you want to change your field. In my mind, I was like how many more questions will they ask. Then I realized I am sitting in an interview.

Politely I said, ” I may be good in computer and stuff but I want to be best in the hospitality industry”. Both the interviewer looked impressed with the answer. It eased my nerves. I was feeling more comfortable.

After a few more easy questions comes one big daunting question.

First Interviewer : “But, why should we give you this job? For this industry, you don’t have any prior experience and we have more qualified candidates sitting outside waiting for their turn”

I was completely caught off guard there. Sweating a little. I raised my hands towards the glass of water. I was sipping water slowly, trying to come up with a quirky answer.

With a little hesitation in my voice, I said: “Can I tell a story here?”

Both the interviewer looked at each other and nodded in unison.

Me : Once I was traveling from London to Delhi. I was terribly missing my family and home, and I was crying a bit. A gentleman saw it. He came to me. Asked me if I was fine. I nodded. He gave me chocolate to eat and asked me not to worry. He advised me everything will be alright.

I continued with my story “This gesture touched my heart. I decided that I will never cry again and will make other people smile. And I think, I can achieve that objective in the hospitality industry”.

I still don’t know how I came up with this answer but the interviewers were surely impresssed.┬áAfter few more gruelling questions they asked me to wait outside. I was sitting nervously outside, waiting for the results and for other candidates to finish their interview. After a while, both the interviewer came outside and announced that the successful candidate was “Me”. What? ┬áHow? I was so excited. I was on cloud nine. I patted on my back and said to myself “Mission accomplished”.

Dubai here I come.

P.S – ┬áI was wanting this job because two days back, through a common friend I got to know that My Girl has left her job in India and shifted to Dubai. ­čÖé

 

Gaurav Gupta

Happiness – Part 2

Happiness!!

Well, what is happiness for me today?

For me today happiness is not about food. It has a new definition today. Coming back home from after a gruelling day of hard work, lying down on the bed. Listening to some soft music and talking to the photo of My Girl ­čÖé

I wish all days were like this. Alone and peaceful. Also listening to one of my favourite┬ásinger Arijit Singh’s song. Soft music and talking to My Girl photo is a day well spent.

So all of you out there just go and talk to your friends and close ones, relax and enjoy life.

 

Gaurav Gupta

What Do I Do?

Yes, What Do I Do?

What Do I Do, when the one person whom I love the most in the world does not want to talk to me. Yes, please talk to me. Please call me once. I am just dying to hear your voice. I have tried talking to a virtual you but it didn’t help. I tried talking to your photo but it didn’t help. I am not feeling easy at all. Just for 2 mins. Please call me and talk to me.

What Do I Do, when the guilt of hurting My Girl becomes so intense that even crying for a whole night does not help. Yes, I cannot live with this guilt. It’s eating me away. Slowly but surely the baggage of this guilt has become so heavy that all my other feelings have been crushed under it. I remember at the time when I was breaking up with you. You said that you wish that I never be in peace again. I guess your wish is coming true.

What Do I Do, when I can’t sleep properly at night just because I am afraid I will see some bad dream about My Girl. Yes, from last 3-4 days I have slept only around 3 hours a night. I am afraid of sleeping. Because every time I sleep I get those weird and horrifying dreams about My Girl. There is a terrible headache. Eyes are swollen up because of lack of sleep and all the crying. How do I sleep?

What Do I Do, when I can’t even walk and talk properly because I haven’t eaten much in last 3-4 days. Yes, from last few days I am just surviving on bread crumbs. Can’t even do household chores now. Somehow just managing in the office. But for how long will I be able to continue like this?

What Do I Do, when I have cut off all the friends I have. And now when I am crying I don’t have anyone to talk to. Yes, I have intentionally stopped talking to all my friends so that I don’t disturb their happy lives with my mess.

What Do I Do, when I know I am in depression and I don’t want to get out of it. I know if My Girl sees me in this situation then she won’t like it. I want her to be my inspiration. Accept this difficult phase in life and move on. But I feel I can’t do anything unless I am with her. I Miss You. Please forgive me and come back. Please.

I don’t know What Do I Do?

 

Gaurav Gupta

Loneliness – Good or Bad

I came across this question today on a social networking site. Is “Loneliness Good or Bad?

Well, I don’t have a definite answer to the question but I can anyways share my thoughts. For me personally, Loneliness is just a transient state. Where I am missing the most intense relationship of my life. The most important person in my life is not present. That is loneliness for me. Where I am not willing to be a part of any social group. But again as I said it is a transient state. I am sure when I will have that intense relationship back in my life that transient state or loneliness will fade away.

Loneliness, good or bad is a question still unanswered. For it works both ways. It has both pros and cons.

Being lonely can be actually very peaceful. Time and again I have got this advice from my friends that I can very well utilise this time to connect to myself. But honestly, I have no idea how to do it.

Yes, loneliness is very peaceful for me as all my emotions are right in front of me in the rawest forms. Though I don’t know how to handle them but still I have discovered that they exist. Earlier I used to be surrounded by family and friends and these emotions never came to the surface. Now that they are there I know I have to figure out a way to handle them. Maybe this┬áis what connecting to one own self-means. But again what to do I care for. Interestingly as I have discovered the existence of all these new emotions, one most dominating one is “care┬áfor no one”.┬áI am still not sure if it is an attitude thing or an emotional bit, but I am liking it. Because when I am in that “I don’t care mode” I actually don’t want to get out of it. I enjoy thrashing everything. Be it friendship, career, relations, health or any other thing. But then someone always does make me realize this is not right for me.

Then there is another side to loneliness as well. The depressing side. There are times when I miss family, friends, and My Girl. When I always want to just fly back home. When the pain at night becomes so intense that even crying for the whole night doesn’t help. It also invokes suicidal tendencies in me. I become so careless about my health that I don’t eat, sleep workout for days at a stretch.

But then again, this made me think on a different question. Is loneliness addictive in nature? Can someone be addicted to the feeling of being alone that they become scared of social groups, social gatherings, making new friends, exploring new places? I am not saying or indicating that this is what is happening with me. But yeah, that is an open question.

So yeah I can only put forward my thought that if loneliness is good or bad. I can’t actually decide.

Would like to hear from fellow bloggers what opinion they have about this question?

 

Gaurav Gupta