Current State

So, have I given up on love? No, but I won’t be the one coming forward with it, chasing you and making all the efforts.

I will just sit pretty and content being single in my joyous zone. If you find me worthy enough, then go ahead and say it to me. But don’t expect me to play the games of hints and silences.

I am done with that circus. You want to be subtle about love? Well, then say – I Love You, at the very least, because nothing less clear will do it for me now.

I am done with the waiting, supposedly romantic, part of love. Just hit me with your love on my face, screaming my name with your blaring tongue, madly in love with me, else – just stay away.

 

Gaurav Gupta

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Love is a Sham Concept

Yes, as the title suggest. Love is a sham concept. Hollow, untrue and a complete hoax. There is nothing as true love. All of us are mean, selfish and self-centered. We love a person until we have some purpose. Purpose solved or lost then love disappears.

I know My Girl doesn’t read my blogs. Actually, no one reads my blogs. But yes some years down the line, I would like My Girl to read these blogs and know that I won’t be able to forgive myself for hurting her. But she has also hurt my feelings equally. Has broken me to last possible piece. Has destroyed all my beliefs.

I thought love is the most beautiful feeling, the purest emotion. But for me, it has now become the most painful thing. It has made me cried all night, has pained me to an extent that now I even don’t recogniseĀ myself. I hate people who say they are in love. I hate happy couples roaming around. I hate happy families. I hate happiness.

There is something I want to say to My Girl.

I know I made a mistake, but I never cheated you. You were, you are and you will always remain My Girl. I hope you get all the happiness in life. But, I will never be able to forgive you for the way you treated me. I used to get drunk, only so that I can tell you my feelings. Tell you how much you mean to me. You have stripped me of my happiness, my dignity, my self-respect. I have begged you to come back to me. Your ego has ruined me.

I used to be a perfect little boy. Not very emotional and carefree. You changed me into a monster. You filled me with hatred. Your reality has poked a hole in the bubble of my happiness.

I will come and meet you on 24th. That will be our last meeting. I will come not to beg you or say anything. I will come only to see you and hear your voice one last time.

I don’t know if I care for you or hate you. But thanks to you no one will ever see my good side again. I will truly become a monster that you perceive me to be. I will destroy all good things that have ever happened to me. I will punish myself for trusting you forever.

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Gaurav Gupta